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Hello. So this is my foremost entry for July. I'm not sure if I can find the time to write more but we'll see. Yesterday was oral for me at BPSS. The school's better than mine but I guess life's never fair. And I've just found out that my LC would be on the same day as my guitar exam which means I've got to leave school early, rush to funan for the exam and rush back to school for another exam. I'm still wondering when disease will hit me. Anyways, school is a drag. I can't wait to get out of there - get out of here too and go far, far away. (to Korea or Australia/US to live with my cousins ^ ^) So...I'm trying out this new thing - potrait sketching. I've been sketching a lot of animes (well, a lot would be an overstatement. I've about thirteen in my album.) I'm going to far east on Monday because I really need a day out...but I haven't ask my dad yet. -.-" I'm going to make him buy another B&J tub of ice cream :) Then I can wallow up in my sorrow with it and gain weight. Sighs...I don't even eat much and I'm a fucking buffalo.
let’s start with i’m a very complex individual. keep in mind that i’m not like the rest of the population on earth. introverted, influential, cynical and pessimistic. that’s me in four words. rebellion always gets me titled as trouble. i have many flaws because i don't try to be perfect so stop pointing them out. perfection does not justify absolute greatness. i’ve just discovered that i’m a perfectionist. to answer your doubts, i’m a mixed blood and agnostic. i'm not religious or anything, but if you don't like my ideas, well that sucks for you. playing the guitar, singing, writing songs, poems, stories and sketching. those are what i do in my spare time. i’m always deep in thoughts. i'm naturally quiet so i guess you're lucky if i open up to you. my music screams really loud at times but other times, they reflect how i’m feeling. i'm may seem mean and sarcastic but i’m actually nice. i'm blunt and i speak my what’s on mind. i also have trust issues. so in conclusion, i'm not perfect. but who are you to judge me? though i also can’t blame you if you judge me based on what i write here. my persona on the surface is bitter cold and my frankness would just pitifully pierce you but i don’t give a damn if i drive you off because i'm not here to please you. i'm just taking up web space. you can't break me so don’t bother trying. i’m actually an emotional person but that trait can override my cool, calm and collected exterior. also, i may seem unapproachable but that's because i don't do first introductions unless you take the initiative to speak to me. and lastly, for me, first impressions count because my first impressions are bad.