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An overwhelming sensation of hatred pours into my eyes
As I stare at this person that causes me so much pain
She looks at me and just sighs
Wondering what happened to make my face so plain
She asks me why my eyes look so empty, so desperate
They've cried all that they can cry, there's nothing left in them
They feel the pain my heart feels, such a painful way
Keeping all these emotions bottled up, they are lost inside
She says she can see right through me
She knows I’m not happy, she knows what I do
She watches me and that rusted blade
She watches the blood drip and slowly fade
This girl that stares at me all day
Is just another reflection that watches my every move
And hopes that someone, someday
Will come rescue me from my self inflicted hell
This stupid reflection is messing with my head
It’s taking over my confidence, my self esteem
She slowly lifts her head for her eyes to meet with mine
She has one last question so I can come clean
Why do you always dress in black? She asks
I’m mourning, I answer, with tears running down my face
Who are you mourning? She asks
Myself...I answer once more
I'll carve my apologies on my wrists, and let the guilt drip down my fingertips.
let’s start with i’m a very complex individual. keep in mind that i’m not like the rest of the population on earth. introverted, influential, cynical and pessimistic. that’s me in four words. rebellion always gets me titled as trouble. i have many flaws because i don't try to be perfect so stop pointing them out. perfection does not justify absolute greatness. i’ve just discovered that i’m a perfectionist. to answer your doubts, i’m a mixed blood and agnostic. i'm not religious or anything, but if you don't like my ideas, well that sucks for you. playing the guitar, singing, writing songs, poems, stories and sketching. those are what i do in my spare time. i’m always deep in thoughts. i'm naturally quiet so i guess you're lucky if i open up to you. my music screams really loud at times but other times, they reflect how i’m feeling. i'm may seem mean and sarcastic but i’m actually nice. i'm blunt and i speak my what’s on mind. i also have trust issues. so in conclusion, i'm not perfect. but who are you to judge me? though i also can’t blame you if you judge me based on what i write here. my persona on the surface is bitter cold and my frankness would just pitifully pierce you but i don’t give a damn if i drive you off because i'm not here to please you. i'm just taking up web space. you can't break me so don’t bother trying. i’m actually an emotional person but that trait can override my cool, calm and collected exterior. also, i may seem unapproachable but that's because i don't do first introductions unless you take the initiative to speak to me. and lastly, for me, first impressions count because my first impressions are bad.